vague gripes
I really dont know where to begin. I just need to rant in a semi-public forum. what makes it so hard? there's no point. what will it accomplish? i defeat myself before i've even begun to open up. you see, it doesn't matter anyway, because no one's really listening. no one really cares, or if they do, they dont know how to solve these problems. there would be no problems if they did. i'm a firm believer in sorting through one's own issues. the sign of a strong person is an exceptional set of problem solving skills. that means, if i discuss something in a public forum, i'm really at a loss, it's almost desperation. people don't realize that. i think what makes it harder for people to decipher what's really going on with me is a general cheeriness in everyday discussions, because, to me, is anything really that important to bring into actual speech? words are driven into insignificance by so many people's overuse; i feel a need to conserve them.
i dont want to rant bc ranting means opening yourself up to ridicule. once you expose the things you feel passionately about, it's out there for people to label you, to cast you aside as believing in this or that dogmatically. or for being irrational or too harsh. at the same time, it's people who believe passionately in something that accelerate change, who provide insight that countless others are incapable of. i don't know which path to choose. the first makes me vulnerable, the second takes me to task & commits me to be consistent when i change priorities moment to moment...
i'll never get enough of ragging on practicing msa-type muslims, who become shortsighted muslim adults, who follow myopic sheikhs and perpetuate injustice due to their lack of concern for humanity. true, muslims are sincere and have better character the the most of mankind (with the exception of neo-buddhists perhaps), but their glossy view of the ummah, blindsight for the abuse people can inflict upon each other within the framework of islam, and their isolationist tendencies are infuriating. islam offers so much, but muslims fail to deliver. i know i fail often. i could be friendlier. more social. i should stop letting the burdens of the world throw me into an anti-social depression. it's not helping me solve the world's problems and it's keeping me from excelling at my career path for the sake of Allah swt. still, at least i'm open to criticism and actively seeking improvement within myself and within the ummah. i can't say that about most practicing muslims, who have minimal interaction with non-ummah folk...what, do people expect the trees to do dawah while they're locked up somewhere praying 20nawafil rakat?
don't get me started on the muslim men, the young & useless msa married muslims, and the sheikhs whose faces shine with knowledge of the sunnah, but whom women will probably never gain knowledge from because of their obsessive, sexist ideologies.
if i drank, i'd be an alcoholic. adn you know what? Ya Ummati, it's ALL YOUR FAULT. Ameen.
i dont want to rant bc ranting means opening yourself up to ridicule. once you expose the things you feel passionately about, it's out there for people to label you, to cast you aside as believing in this or that dogmatically. or for being irrational or too harsh. at the same time, it's people who believe passionately in something that accelerate change, who provide insight that countless others are incapable of. i don't know which path to choose. the first makes me vulnerable, the second takes me to task & commits me to be consistent when i change priorities moment to moment...
i'll never get enough of ragging on practicing msa-type muslims, who become shortsighted muslim adults, who follow myopic sheikhs and perpetuate injustice due to their lack of concern for humanity. true, muslims are sincere and have better character the the most of mankind (with the exception of neo-buddhists perhaps), but their glossy view of the ummah, blindsight for the abuse people can inflict upon each other within the framework of islam, and their isolationist tendencies are infuriating. islam offers so much, but muslims fail to deliver. i know i fail often. i could be friendlier. more social. i should stop letting the burdens of the world throw me into an anti-social depression. it's not helping me solve the world's problems and it's keeping me from excelling at my career path for the sake of Allah swt. still, at least i'm open to criticism and actively seeking improvement within myself and within the ummah. i can't say that about most practicing muslims, who have minimal interaction with non-ummah folk...what, do people expect the trees to do dawah while they're locked up somewhere praying 20nawafil rakat?
don't get me started on the muslim men, the young & useless msa married muslims, and the sheikhs whose faces shine with knowledge of the sunnah, but whom women will probably never gain knowledge from because of their obsessive, sexist ideologies.
if i drank, i'd be an alcoholic. adn you know what? Ya Ummati, it's ALL YOUR FAULT. Ameen.
posted by The Hijabi Jedi at 7:14 PM
1 Comments:
i can so see you as an activist... insha'Allah :))) and not an alcoholic.. i can totally see a hawaiian punch-aholic!! :)
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