Shattering the rules

so in the ground rules i never posted, i wanted to clearly limit what i could write about, i wanted to keep the blog for ideas and arguments alone. it's a pet peeve of mine to talk about really personal thoughts in the raw...I much prefer intellectualized discourse that keep emotions an analytical tool. then again, i know how ideas are hard to reach if they are distant and impersonal. i like being a stoic. i like keeping my well-adjusted social life and my angst-ridden personal life separate, and i dont like talking about the fact that i have vulnerabilities. i dont like it when people talk on and on about themselves either (how self-absorbed...although i enjoy reading about/listening to other people). but as i become more socially agile, i come off as one of those extroverted people in whose presence i'd cringe years before, people who would never understand struggle or strife or irrational injustices dominating the personal sphere...the feeling of being doomed to an alienated demise...because they came from happy families and good schools and bright suburbs. no, i don't think i'll keep the blog an ideas-only page, but i'm not going to litter this site with incredibly personal information either. haha, i remember something aliya once said (salaams cinderaliya if you're reading this :) ) , that before she knew me i was a set of exciting posts from abroad to the al-muslimat conference, but even after we'd become good friends in person, i was still this mysterious entity she could never fully understand. and that explains quite a lot. i dont ever expect to understand myself. I even place restrictions on the amount of time i'm allowed for introspection because my memories are fierce and draining. So it is unhealthy for me to go too deeply into anything personal, and it will remain in the spiritual sphere. I think that is the general guideline I'll try to follow.